• Judy Mortellaro

Perhaps I am gifted with the luxury of an open time and space continuum. I mean, now that I am retired from the constraints of a life bound by paychecks related to time clocks and performance reviews, perhaps I am free to explore my own time space reality. I retire when I wish to and arise as I feel so inclined. So is this Freedom? It definitely feels less confined and restricted than when I was employed and in service of a large corporation. Yet, there is something more - something much deeper I find myself exploring; a rifling through my mind's ramblings and probings into Freedom's expression as part of my being. Is it out of my reach? Is it attainable while embodied in this lifetime?

My mind unearth's a sense of peace and a quality of spaciousness as it enters Freedom's domain. There is a calm, solemn air of existence where Freedom exists. Peace is brought to light. Quiet and silence exist where disharmony and restless, wandering thoughts once prevailed. This then is Freedom unsurpassed, transcendent. Freedom becomes an inner boon unrelated to outer life. Freedom is that state of mind, that quality of the Higher Self undismayed, calm and composed, harmonious, like a pendulum that has found its ultimate midpoint. There is then, above all else, a striving to perpetuate Freedom in each moment of my existence. Freedom, then, for me, can only be found in each moment, as I mindfully move, one breath at a time, attending to balance and harmony of being. I am that I am. Freedom without condition.

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  • Judy Mortellaro

Recently, I sat with Vulnerable and traveled into his essence. He comes as a cloak of protection when fright arises. It was not difficult to feel his fear and ingest his anxiety. I recognized it as a familiar fundamental quality that has journeyed with me many times before. The gnawing in my guts; the pounding in my chest; the shortened breath. His nature is defenseless, however. His power usurped as his weak boundaries are easily scaled. The chinks in his mortared aura violently tapped into gaps that sanction easy access to his being. Oxymoronic, however, since the more he engages to protect, the less effective he is.

As I trekked deeper into Vulnerable's being, I encountered another facet of his being. There was an inner doorway to the protection he sought. When the gaps in his aura are opened, a seemingly quiescent transition occurs. The light moves inward and when Vulnerable is willing, the channels to fear are closed. The light shines inward and sparks the passionate inner self. Vulnerable now becomes a risk taker. One who is willing to risk letting his true self shine forth. No further need for fear because the true self is only Love. Love trumps fear. Freedom ensues and with it joy.

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  • Judy Mortellaro

Having just returned from seeing the movie about Mr Rogers, I am flooded with emotion and memory. Sadly, he was not a part of my childhood television programs, but I am and have always felt fortunate that he was part of my life as a mother. Not only did he teach children about how to deal with feelings, but he also taught parents how to talk to their sons and daughters. Furthermore, he liked me “...just the way I am.” It is this notion I contemplate most every day. When I review relationships of this life, I now realize my part in those that have faltered and dissolved. I attempted to change my friend or lover or family member. My perspective was the “right” one. I was, I thought, helping another and at the same time, making my life better. I see now, that, I did not take Mr. Roger’s teachings to heart. I loved that he liked me just the way I am, but was blind to see the message forward.

Inwardly, I know that I did not accept his love for me. I know that I did not like my “just” the way I was. I was in the habit of trying to impress others. I was dressing, eating, exercising, talking, acting, in manners I thought would most impress others - ways that would make them like me. Ultimately, if I did like me for who I was, certainly how could others?

Globally, my heart tells me that if we could only accept others as fellow humans doing the best they can with what they have to do it with at the time they are doing it, we would be operating at a much higher level of vibration than we are now. Yes, there are sanctions we must exert to maintain peace and protection for all. Yet, in the end, if Love were our guiding principle and acceptance of others perspectives; be it on religion, politics, diet, way of life; there would be far less hate crimes, killings, wars, and chaos in this beauteous, glorious Earth we are blessed to inhabit.

I thank you Mr Rogers for your glorious and grand messages to us all. I now commit to my Self to emulate him until my dying day.

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